A revelation to say the least. Since that day I often think back to the exact moment I spoke those words to myself and am amazed at its simplicity and it magnitude .
Protecting and Compensating. These are two “Guarding” words if you thing about them, right? Technically I was reffering to my leg, but symbolically, well there is a different story.
My Horsemanship Journey though technical in many ways is not so much about the horse aspect but the personal growth and development. Horses are my therapy. My poor horses! Over the last 8 yrs I have been on a wonderful journey, and of the last 2-3 its been getting really good. I have begun to unlock and reveal me. How did it begin , at a clinic of all places. It really is so much more than riding. The obstacles and set backs I encounter with my horses all have a greater purpose. If it were not for them I would not be writing this blog post. Why??? Because I would not be aware enough or ready to hear what those words really meant for me! And more importantly , those of my students .
Compensating and Protecting, it’s not about the ….leg , but My heart and emotions. Long story , not a bad one just the way it was. Easier not to feel or express feelings. I know I am not alone in this.
So what came out of this wonderful Ah ha Moment??? I realized how emotionally exhausting it was for me to be on guard, and, that I was.
What was I “Really” scared of anyway??? This was a wake up call. Now its up to me to realistically look at what is holding me back and move it aside, or move through it .